Saturday, August 30, 2014

Let me picture you

“Hey Carissa! Come look at this!”
I hurried over to the window to stand by Jules and look at the long green lizard that was hanging on the thin metal bars, its body twisted at a funny angle. She poked it and it twitched.
“Wait! I want to picture it!”
Picture it. Carissa, no. That isn't proper English. That isn't right at all!
Though one can get positive energy from the kids here, one also gets a heavy dose of bad grammar and fragmented sentences. While walking to the beach after the closing Sabbath meeting, Jessa ran ahead of me, picked a small red flower, and then spun around with her arms wide and cried out, “Picture me, Miss Carissa!” I couldn't bring myself to correct her, so for the rest of the evening it was “Let me picture you!” and “Let me picture you and Miss Julianne!” Quiet kids, and let Miss Carissa picture this amazing sunset.

My crazy kids! From left to right:
Yahle, Meuser, Sasha, Oci and AJ
We’re becoming teachers. When I’m down in my classroom making lesson plans my desk is covered with little kid knowledge. The lined paper covered with A’s, I’s and the’s mingle with drawings of plants and math assignments, coming in contact with the water that sweats from my Nalgene. I have so many books that I’m looking through to find ideas, and somehow I still have difficulty filling some class periods. It’s all trial and error, and I’ll get the hang of it soon!
When it gets to around 9:00 pm, that is when the four of us start thinking about how much we just want to go to bed. Now, the very idea of pulling an all-nighter scares me so bad! If we’re up until the late hour of 10:00 we start to get a little loopy, our language is reduced to that of our students, and all things seem more entertaining. That hour has been compared to how college students typically act when it gets around 2:00 am at WWU…

Last weekend I was told that I would be doing the children’s story on Sabbath. I remembered a simple story about little Billy and his fluffy kitten who fell down into the well, and on Sabbath morning I was ready to go up there and tell those kids how God’s arms are stronger than even little Billy’s father’s arms! But that wasn't the church schedule’s plan. Any church meeting is still kind of confusing for us. We always have to be ready with a special music or a personal testimony. Two Fridays ago the speaker didn't show up to vespers, so since I was going to do the children’s story the next day it was decided that I would be the one to give the message. I don’t like talking in front, so that was an adventure!
But anyways, I looked up to the front to Mr. Neth and pointed from me and then up, asking if I was supposed to go and do the story. He motioned me up, so I did, and then watched the kids fill the front. When they were all sitting still and the whole church was hushed I looked to my right. Another church lady stood there looking at me. “Oh! Are you doing it this week?” I exclaimed and she nodded. I spun around to face the congregation, threw my hands up, and smiled. “Guess I’ll just keep mine until next week!”
Awkward.  

Here's to hoping that doesn't happen again. In the meantime, please enjoy this picture of the four of us and a sunset. Mary pictured it for me. 

Thursday, August 21, 2014

First week of teaching and crawling oatmeal

It is the end of my first week of teaching in Kosrae, and what a week it has been – packed full with a myriad of emotions ranging from absolute terror to quiet calm.
My classroom is the room with the open door, and our
apartment is on the second floor on the left
On the first day we ate breakfast in mostly silence, each lost in her own thoughts. I for one was very nervous, going over in my mind what I would say in the first few moments of the school year; and in the background of my thoughts was a continuous prayer for a calming of my jittery nerves. What if I only have two students? What if I lose control of the class in the first week and never get it back? What if all my lesson plans only take up 15 minutes of the 45 allotted to each subject? These questions and more swam around my mind as I finished getting ready for the day and picked out the all-important first day outfit – blue shirt and a maxi skirt – and twisted my hair up into a teacher’s bun. Then after a quick staff worship in the air conditioned computer room we were all off to our classrooms to wait for the bell.
RING RING!! The jarring tone sent a hand around my stomach but I nevertheless opened the door and began to greet my students. They filed in slowly, shaking my outstretched hand and accepting my greeting but offering little to none in return. Quiet eyes met mine and they picked a seat and sat, kicking their legs. I have only five kids in my class, and even though we’re hoping/expecting more kids to come as the year progresses it will be nice to have some one-on-one time.
“Hello class, and welcome to first and second grade. I’m your teacher, Ms. Carissa.”
And that’s how it all started. I tried to lead them in a couple songs for worship, but it was just me singing a solo in a resounding room. I went over the rules, which I would just have to repeat that very afternoon, and then we started math class. I gave them a sheet with places to write their numbers up to 100, and quickly found that the average top number they knew was 15. Most of them wrote their 2’s, 3’s, 5’s, and 7’s backwards, so at least I know where I need to start. The rest of the day progressed kind of in the same fashion; my kids are a little rusty from not having to do anything during the summer so this first month is going to be mostly review.
And by review I mean starting at the very beginning.
By lunchtime my kids were starting to open up and the volume in the room started to increase, and it was time to start crowd control. One thing that we learned in Hawaii was the 3 F’s: Firm, Fair, and Friendly. This method involves being the kid’s teacher first and foremost, to make sure that they know that you are in charge and that they need to obey you. I feel harsh, but if you try to be a student’s friend during the first couple months you’ll lose your authority in the classroom it is next to impossible to get it back.
Alisha turned 21!!
I’ll go over my daily schedule more when it is set in stone, but for right now we’re all just figuring it out. This is all going to be so much harder than I ever thought possible, but I came here to teach, not for an extended vacation.

Julianne Price comes on Saturday! Right now it’s just me alone in a big dark room, and the night noises are taking a while to get used to… There are a couple pigs outside my window, and I don’t think they've figured out yet that the night was made for sleeping.
We got a couple packages in the mail from Jeanne, and with cries of enthusiasm we used our house keys to stab at the tape dividing us from a treasure chest of goodies – that most likely would include chocolate. Then we pulled out the chips, rice krispies, fruit roll ups, dried fruits, coffee, teas, pens, and yes – chocolate, and divvied them out. Pace yourself. I thought, wanting the treats to last as long as possible.
Later that evening, after I had dumped the empty wrappers of half of my share in the trash, I watched the chickens pecking in the dirt around the seesaw – looking for bugs and the crumbs.
snorkeling by the Pastor's house
The seesaw. This 2x6 plank of wood is one of the children’s favorite recess activities – and is also the most dangerous. I've witnessed around fifteen kids all piled on top and around the wood either sitting, standing, or laying too close for comfort to the board. In groups they throw themselves on the elevated part and watch as their schoolmates on the other side rush up and into the air. Then, when both sides are covered with children one side will decide to play lets-all-jump-off-and-make-the-other-side-slam-to-the-ground. Each day we stand and stare at them and ask each other if we should do something. Then we just stare some more and wince when a kid hits the ground. These kids are as tough as nails.

Here’s something that just happened. As I was enjoying a small bowl-full of dry oatmeal with sprinkles (strange, but I know some people can relate) I looked down and noticed that the oatmeal crumbs were moving. This isn't typical.
Oatmeal-eater: “Guys, I’m pretty sure I’m eating bugs.”
MaKayla looked over and gasped dramatically, “Where is it?” I pointed, and there was another gasp.
Alisha came over and peeked in. “That’s a sprinkle!”
“No, there! It just went under that oat.”
“That is disgusting!”
I took another spoonful and looked closely at it, searching for life.
“Are you going to eat that?” MaKayla asked with a look of disgust. “Respect.”
“Well, I’m thinking about it…” I carefully put the spoon into my mouth, and when I pulled it out I looked down at my spoon. A tiny brown leggy bug ran across the silver surface.
Quickly in motion I ran and spit out the mouthful of oats and dumped the offending bowlful into the trash where the little guys would be much happier than they would be in my stomach.

Currently, MaKayla is checking my head for lice. I'm not paranoid. 




Thursday, August 14, 2014

A tale about spearfishing

“I’m thinking of going spearfishing Thursday night if you’re interested.”
Mr. A’s statement grabbed my attention; this was one of the adventures I had only read about and I couldn’t wait to experience it firsthand! All of us SM’s actually hadn’t gone into the ocean off Kosrae yet, we’ve been super busy with lesson plans and trying to not act like complete tourists… it was interesting to me that my first snorkeling experience in Kosrae would be at night. With a gun.
Thursday was a slow yet relaxing day, we spent most of it half-heartedly touching up our finished lesson plans and eating while watching Cast Away. “Wilson!” It’s a good thing that we watched that movie after flying, or else I would have had a harder time of it than I did. Planes and I have a strained relationship.
But finally it was time to go; we made a long work of grabbing our snorkels, masks, flashlights, fins, and the spear guns and walked the short distance down to the beach. MaKayla and I were the only teachers to go with Mr. A and his son, Xord, this time. Alisha said that she was going to ‘work on her lessons plans’ for a bit longer, which can be translated into: “I’m going to read over the highly detailed notes of what I will be setting out to accomplish with my students on the first day of school for about ten minutes, and then the exhaustion that seems to coincide with the humidity here will come crashing down onto me and you will return to find me asleep on the couch.”
Very exciting.
Anyways, after reattaching my mask to the snorkel in the proper way, I struggled with my fins while Xord easily slipped on his gear and was already looking around. Evidently it may take me a while to master this new art. Soon though, the four of us were heading off through the water, kicking bubbles into each other’s faces and searching for small sea creatures among the sea grass. The salinity levels here are so much lower than what they were in Hawaii, which is such a blessing!  
“Er, er!” Came the muffled exclamation from Mr. Alamo. We went to where he was standing only to find that he had already managed to successfully spear a small fish. You have to get it on the first try! I told myself.
Fish sleep at night, so we searched for them among the shelter of hunks of coral, seaweed-covered rocks, or miniature sand dens. And the sand den that we were by was perfect for hiding and was occupied by a sleepy tropical fish. We all got into a position where we could shine our flashlights down into the hole and see the fish: a reddish guppy with bulging eyes. “Shoot, shoot, shoot!!” Mr. A chimed in. Well, as chime-y as you can get when you’re breathing through a tube. MaKayla aimed, fired! And missed. Undeterred, she pulled the spear back until it clicked into place and readied the gun once again. Then, an underwater breath, aim, and fire! Another miss.
To keep this short… that process went on for a while, and though the fish procured a great deal of side scratches and tail wounds it was unrelenting in its attempts to avoid being speared.
We swam on, and found another rock with what seemed to the fish to be a good hiding place. Then the gun was in my hands, I loaded it, and gave myself a little pep talk. “Don’t worry Carissa, the fish will die quickly, just spear it through the brain.” Now, I’m feeling really hypocritical right now, so to my fellow biologists – please don’t look down on me. But we know that sometimes in the biology field you have to kill smaller animals for research purposes, or feed adorable little mice to snakes, so let’s just say I am preparing myself for that. It’s just a fish, I… yeah. Oh goodness, it had a mom.
But nevertheless I aimed the gun and fired. A miss. Now it may seem to you that if either MaKayla or I were ever in a situation like Cast Away we would quickly perish, but let’s all compare how he tried to catch fish the first time verses how well he was able to catch fish after four years on that island. Ok, bad comparison, we won’t be here that long. I loaded up the gun again and took careful aim, trying to keep my eye at the same level as the gun as much as I could (I’ve never gone shooting or anything like that, so I will admit I’m a total noob), fired, and SPEARED THAT FISH! Insert: muffled squeal of exclamation and excitement. I pulled the fish out from its hiding place and stood up, shining my flashlight to look at my catch, a small guppy.
The metal went through the fish right behind its head, and it flicked its fin desperately. Instantly a wave of sadness washed over me. “I’m so sorry!” I cried; I had just ruined this little guy’s fishy existence. Mr. A and Xord just laughed at me, and I handed the fish over to Xord for him to put it on the string of wire that they had brought. But during the gun to wire transition there was a violent thrashing, a small splash, and my guppy was free. No! I mean, hooray the fish has a second chance! We tried to follow it for a time, but it was quickly gone. I would like to say it’s chilling around a hunk of coral with its fish-buds who are all telling tall fish tales about the ‘time they got away,’ but he actually was probably eaten by a shark. (Sorry for that unfortunate ending).
But the hunt wasn’t over, and we kept moving, our fins propelling us through the ocean from rock to coral, and at one place we saw a couple parrot fish. Then Mr. A hollered, and we went to watch the cutest little octopus crawling along. He was a red-orange with luminescent blue flecks all over, and that was just the coolest! We soon found another good spot, and I was able to spear this next fish on the first try! Water makes everything look bigger, so the fish looked to be around ten or more inches, but when we brought it out of the water it was only seven or so. Ah, oh well…
More swimming and then we stopped at this large hunk of coral that was very promising. MaKayla and I tried a couple unsuccessful times to hit anything, but this was such a teeming niche that I couldn’t have cared less. I saw a couple guppies, some iridescent sea urchins, a young camouflaged False Stonefish (apparently actual Stonefish are very poisonous), and I was thrilled to see a couple legs of my favorite marine creature: the brittle star! When we were standing up there was a flurry of activity around the flashlight, miniscule creatures darted around our hands and torsos. We first thought they were bugs, until we realized they were underwater and I caught a few of them in my hands for a closer inspection. They were crabs! Tiny crabs, the size of the bead on the end of a sewing pin! They varied in hues of red and had six almost transparent legs, two tiny pinchers, and little beady eyes sticking up on their heads. It was just the cutest thing, until they decided to start pinching.
On the way heading back we saw a four-legged blue starfish, and then a five-legged blue starfish. For obvious reasons, we placed them on our heads and watched their legs curl around our heads like a hat. We were teasing MaKayla about how the starfish was eating her hair, and when Mr. A was taking it off he pulled a small bit of her hair, “Oh no! I did not know starfish liked hair so much!” He joked. Poor MaKayla didn’t understand the humor, and was freaking out until I called out Mr. A’s part in her torture.
Then once we were back at our apartment we rinsed off and checked our coral scratches (yes mom, I cleaned the area and applied ointment. Don’t worry; I have a healthy fear of infections). So all-in-all, it was one of the coolest things I’ve ever done, and it won’t be the last! Next time, I’ll bring a camera.
And yes, Alisha was asleep on the couch.
If this blog seemed to be more about the animals than anything else, I’m not sorry. It’s who I am.
In other news: we have a new housemate, a cute little lizard named Shakira; the internet connection is so slow that I could write a whole letter, mail it, and get a reply in the time it takes to check my Facebook site or send an email with an attachment (if God wanted to teach me patience then He picked a fantastic way to do it); we ran out of gas while doing driving tests; and there is chocolate fudge cake mix on this island that has no dairy in it. 

Blessings to you, and send frosting! 

Sunday, August 10, 2014

Arrival

I’m in Kosrae! And one of my first thoughts was “This must be a taste of what Eden looked like.”
We got to Kosrae around 1:30 p.m. Saturday afternoon, and left Honolulu around 7:30 a.m. Friday morning. Sounds strenuous, but with the International Date line it actually amounted to about nine or so hours of travel. After being photobombed by Santa Clause in Honolulu, we stopped for an hour in each Majuro and Kwajalein. When we neared the island the girls and I ignored the seat belt sign for a few seconds and scrambled around the plane, straining for the first glimpse of our island home.
Kosrae is gorgeous. From the plane’s window I watched the deep blue and white freckled surface of the ocean turn to a bright aqua green, and then transform once again as rock and coral dotted the water near the tideline that sent on the waves to continuously hit the thin beach. Houses were scattered by the sand and then were swallowed by the quickly thickening jungle.
There was a jolting, a quick break, and we were there. We piled out and after a quick mess of passports, Nalgenes, luggage, and customs we headed out. We were met with the Alamo family (our principal) and the Pastor and his wife. Then, Mr. A’s son put two fragrant flower garlands on my head, and I quickly learned that the young girl with the dark, quick eyes was one of my students: the Pastor’s daughter Jessa.
They drove us to the compound, but instead of a break we were ushered in as the VIP guests to the church’s potluck. I told the airplane food I had just ate on the flight to squish into a corner of my stomach and filled my plate with rice, two different types of curry, a tomato-bean-noodle dish, salad, two preparations of taro, breadfruit, papaya, and bananas. Then the Pastor cut open the top of a fresh coconut and handed it to me. Now, I’m not a huge fan of coconut – it’s just not my thing. But this was like drinking the tropics with all its sunshine and beauty.
I can live with that.
After that we went and checked out the apartment; and the pastor’s wife kept bringing in package after package, until the welcome sign on the table was covered in food. We are blessed with such a nice apartment! The place was just recently remodeled and looks amazing. There are two bedrooms, an office, a bathroom, and when you first come in you’ll walk into an open living/dining room and our kitchen. There’s plenty of storage and a full kitchen – minus the dishwasher, but that is what our hands are for. I can’t wait to put up some decorations and make it feel like home! I can see the mountain by the compound out of the corner of my window, and then viewing ends in a tangle of jungle. As a girl who is used to the wide spaces of the Tri-Cities, it’s going to take a while to not feel closed in.
It still feels kinda surreal that I’m here. Ever since I knew what a Student Missionary was I knew I wanted to be one. And though I never heard myself being audibly called to service or had some life-altering encounter that convinced me to put my education on hold for ten months, I’ve had a hunger for going someplace new and seeing how God can work through me first-hand. I’m realizing that this is going to be one of the hardest things that I’ve ever done, and through all the excitement I felt a first jab of homesickness. As I pulled out a small pile of pictures of my friends and family and flipped through them it fully dawned on me how long it will be until I can see all of you face-to-face again.
I’m going to miss so many people so much! But for now, I just want to embrace the culture and these people, and truly experience Kosrae.

Since I didn’t actually fall off the face of the earth, feel free to send me letters and packages! I would really appreciate teaching supplies (for first and second graders) or any bits of love that you could send my way.

Carissa Clendenon
Kosrae Adventist School
PO Box 94
Tofol, Kosrae 96944
FSM
And you can write “For Student Missionary” on the package if you would like.

God bless you all, and pictures will be coming soon*!

*decent internet access allowing

the first look

Thursday, August 7, 2014

Scratching the surface of the iceberg

Alisha, MaKayla, our principal Mr. Alamo, and I
Our incredible Walla Walla University GMM group

These last few days have been a crazy blur of faces, teaching information, and beaches.
Yesterday I sat in our Hawaiian host’s living room and enjoyed the breeze coming through the windows as Makayla played her ukulele and Alisha watched some of Tom Hanks’ spoofs and other random YouTube videos (Janice, I have fallen!). We were able to go the beach and enjoy the waves, and get sand everywhere and return to find ourselves plenty burnt. Since the plane only lands in Kosrae on Mondays and Fridays, we are still in Hawaii, and with the weather forecast, we aren’t sure how long we will be staying.
It’s old news, but there are three hurricanes headed our way. The weather announcers could tell you more than I could about them, but right now we are still planning to head to the airport at 4:30 a.m. to catch our flight to Kosrae (finally!). The weather today was interesting: for one hour the clouds would be dark and heavy, settling around the nearby mountains like a foreboding cloak of rain; but then the next hour the sky would clear up, the sun would shine through the humidity, and the clouds would be just a light dusting of white on the mountains.
I’m not too worried about the storms, but I just am hoping and praying that the airport will give our plane their blessing to leave. I can’t wait to get to Kosrae! I have said in the past how cool it would be to live on an island for a year, but I never really imagined that I would get the chance. So now, I’m just anxious to get to my island home…
The teacher’s orientation was busy and quite informative. We went to multiple meetings, listened to tons of last-minute advice, ate good food, and even had time to explore the island. We have had so much information thrown at us, but one of the teachers mentioned that what she was telling us was just scratching the tip of the surface of the iceberg. On Monday night, after eating supper at the Spaghetti Factory with the Walla Walla crew, a group of us went over to the beach to walk in the warm water and dig our toes into the sand. There was a small park with a couple banyan trees in it, which have thin aerial roots that seem to help the trunk hold up its massive tangle of leaves up top. Some of the branches hang down and we were able to pull out our Tarzan-moves and even climb a little ways up the trunk. I’m sorry climbing walls, but nature will always trump any of your hand-holds. There was so much that happened this last week, but I should keep these posts short and I still need to pack again for tomorrow. 
Thanks for your prayers, and here’s to good weather in the morning!

  
First time on a Hawaiian shore!

The National Memorial Cemetery



At Nu'uanu Pali Lookout: the windiest place in O'ahu